Give Me Time

I finished my book yesterday or the day before that. Surprising, yet it was sort of going the way I thought it would. I'm glad I can wake up at 9 or 10 still, because believe me, my body needs it. And sadly my boyfriend leaves to Disneyland in about three days. A whole five days without him? Are you kidding me?

I love you.

Dear the love of my life,

I'm sorry for everything that I put you through, I know that you don't deserve any of that. Baby, I love you with every ounce in my little body and for the rest of my life I know that I'm ready to show that to you each day we are together. No matter how I am, you always love me, hopefully more and more. I have the same feelings for you since the first day we met, but so much more now. And even though some days you're a pain in my ass, I love you more and more after. You have my heart in your hands, take care of it for me okay? :') I love you Babytiger, foreverz and everz <3

So its very late

I have nothing to do but sleep soon.
My boyfriend drives me mad when he is quiet on the phone. Plus, I still have to brush my teeth and make sure to fucking wake up tomorrow morning. -_________- Well, I feel like I just shot up some heroin or something, so I'm going to go and brush my teeth and go to bed.
I hate GB. And lemonade rocks.

My news of birth!

He's not big yet, but I have a new baby :) His name is Chancho! One blue and one brown eye and I love him very much :D Kendar tried to dognap him ealier today :o And as soon as my dad comes home, he's getting a shower!! xD I want my boyfriend right now :(

And it's all downhill from here

What I've come to notice was how everything is getting worse everyday...
People are lost, objects lost, money goes nowhere... We better be getting better with the one world we have. I need something of real interest, that has meaning for my life, that will make me better, then have me to my old ways. Give me rest; Give everyone a rest that needs it.

If I keep at the way I'm going, I think I might explode. The feelings inside of me want to crawl out and attack. I have scar tissue I wish you could see, but life works the way it does. I sadly try many times to believe what my best friend Queef says... Not working as much as I hoped. If there is anything I can do is just wait. Just not for the rest of my life.

There are no other ways

When you live, you find your true self and that someone that will forever satisfy your every need no matter how you act. That one person that will always make you smile when you're at your saddest point and give you hugs when you have the most deadliest disease. Who will give you any time of day, no matter how tired they are and need the rest. Falling asleep, and never wanting to wake up to see the time that has passed by because you want forever to be with them. It feels like we're across the universe and still, it seems like that they're right there beside you every step of your life. To make your little blimp of existence feel like an explosion. With every part of their body, will love you for the rest of your life for you and only you. Looking past the other unneccesary characteristics. Enjoying cups of milk, eating quite exotic foods and such, you go blind or deaf, they will still be there next you holding your had through it all. That person will get up for you to simply get the remote that's 2 inches away just for you. Make you food in the middle of the night and enjoy some of that top ramen along with your midnight hunger, instead of taco bell. Persons with passion, kindness and no need of the materialism that everyone nowadays looks for in almost anyone. Just because of your status, there is no feelings or a chance. They won't ever let you go no matter how bad it is, just stays right there, in that little place called your heart.